Soul Work: Faith

This past year has helped me understand the concept of faith—and it’s been making one hell of a difference in my life.
Before this chapter, I believed. Yes. But faith is more than belief—it’s commitment. And recently, I discovered that I have commitment issues. Not in the way most people think (cheating). My commitment issues were rooted in fear and disappointment.

Through shadow work and reflection, I realized that since childhood, I became so accustomed to expecting disappointment that I built walls—walls that grew taller each time I encountered people or situations that felt too challenging.

Your heartbreak makes you move in ways that guard you from ever being hurt again.
Your first job layoff or firing plants fear about staying too long at any company.
Your first failed entrepreneurial venture convinces you the journey wasn’t meant for you.
Your first betrayal makes trust feel impossible.

All of these experiences condition us to move with fear.
They make us defensive. Reactive.
And I was one of those people—trapped in that battling state of mind.

I’ve taken time to reflect and hold myself accountable for this trait.
The sole purpose? I grew tired of holding myself back because of fear and doubt.
Fear and doubt breed worry—and worry consumes far too much of our mental space today.

Jason Mraz’s The Remedy (I Won’t Worry) has always been a song I gravitated toward as a child. It helped me work through this part of myself. And now, as I grow spiritually, I can see the interconnectedness of my past and my journey—how everything I’ve gone through has prepared me for some future version of myself, as I work toward becoming my higher self.

I am flawed. Just like the next person.
I am pure, not perfect. And there’s a difference.

Realizing this has taught me that my purity is rooted in authenticity.
Authenticity does not mean perfection.

In today’s society, women are conditioned to chase perfection.
We’re told to look perfect, speak perfectly, “appear” perfect for male attention.
Perfect mothers. Perfect daughters. Perfect wives.

But perfection is driving us into a brick wall.
I’ve never prided myself on being perfect, but even I’ve fallen victim to the chase.
And if there’s one thing I’ve learned—chasing leads to misfortune, exhaustion, and regret.

My spirituality has helped me understand the power of attraction.
It’s shifted me from a state of chasing to a state of alignment.

Understanding attraction and alignment has reduced my stress in ways so profound, it’s been life-changing.
But life doesn’t change in the blink of an eye.
It can for some—and it has for me before.

But now I’ve realized: I don’t want it to.
When life changes too fast, it breeds delusion, illusion, and misalignment.
I want my change to be gradual. Intentional. Consistent.

Commitment.

My spiritual journey has arrived at a chapter where I’m confronting my issues with commitment and faith.
And this is a journey that requires action and time.

Becoming a higher version of yourself isn’t just about identifying growth—it’s about doing the work to get there.
Action builds consistency.
Consistency brings real change.

Here’s an example of a reflection I wrote this morning.
As you grow, you learn the importance of affirmation work.
My affirmations help me pray.
They help me stay focused on my healing journey.

Journal Entry 

12/3/2025

7:09am 

Today will be a great day.

Today, I choose peace. Today, I choose me—not out of fear, but in a way that allows me to release fear, doubt, and worry.

I will not worry my life away.

I release the blockages weighing on my mind and heart. I move forward with trust and confidence. One belief I will never question again is that whatever is meant for me will align itself to me. This is a truth I no longer doubt. So I will continue to grow fruitfully, and allow everything else to fall into place as it should.

I am loved. I am protected. I am favored. I am chosen.

To my ancestors, I pray for continued guidance and protection. I pray for clarity and understanding. I release the worry and doubt that cloud my mind and transform them into energy that is open and ready to receive. I will remain open, genuine, authentic, and honest. I will remain honorable. And I will continue to move with grace.